Must Have #18

 

Nope, I’m still the same ol’ G. 

http://www.volcom.com/

Must Have #17

Of course Ben Sherman would email about the new 2010 collection 2 days before payday. OF COURSE! Silly not to, really. And now, the torment begins…

Actually, after browsing, I really don’t want any of it. ANY of it. Except for the shirt above (and some of the sale items from 2009 that was must have like, 14 or something). Huh, am I breaking up with Ben? Is it true? Is this what happens when you get older? Has my taste changed? I need to check volcom.com stat…

A gift to myself:

 Dance Lessons

Get ready for me and a lot of this: 

2010 Update.

In the past: 

November through February have been hard on my heart. 

However:

This last November through February has opened my heart.

Goodbye Portland

Hello Mexico. 

Every year, my company has a sales trip that typically involves the following: sand, beaches, food, child-free, and booze-induced sales meetings. Last year, we went to South Beach Miami.

I even found my own douche-bag!! 

This year, I plan on being on the beach from morning til night, sipping cocktails with my co-workers and watching the sunset  before residing to my luxury suite.

It’s going to be so romantic. 

The Suicide Notes

New Song up on our FACEBOOK and MYSPACE.

‘Something at the Window’

Enjoy!

I needed help…

so I bought this at Anthropologie. 

In other news: my network connection at home is GONE. I don’t know how or why it happened. Sunday? Worked fine. Monday? “You are unable to connect…”

I need help. HELP! 

My Empire State of Mind for 2010

2010 I think you and I are going to be great friends. I feel more inspired than I have in a long time and it almost breaks my heart to think I let myself wallow in misery for so long. Not that everything was bad. Just not exactly where (in hindsight) I should be. I learned a lot about myself this past year, and over the weekend I was asked what my resolutions are. I typically don’t make resolutions in January but rather the start of fall. That’s the time it feels right. With the seasons. Anyway, after some thinking about the past year (or four) I realised that I shouldn’t wait to make the much-needed changes and need the fresh mind-set to make these things happen. To be honest, it scares the shit out of me. But, I don’t think I have a choice if I want to be the woman I am destined to be.  So, the following are not your typical “I’m going to the gym more,” or “I’m going to say hello to every person on the elevator during the week”  resolutions for the year. These will be my Soul Resolutions.

 So, without further ado (I just curtsied) Jessica’s 2010 Soul Resolutions:

1) FRIENDS. More lady friends, that is. I need them.It’s been somewhat of a learning experience for me in this department. My entire life, I’ve surrounded myself with boys and although I will still depend on all of them (you guys don’t get off the hook that easily), I also need the other half to understand exactly what’s going on in this noggin of mine and vice versa. Jason and Arsenio, nice try. You’re still mine.

2) LOVE (in the non-romantical sense) I’ve (re)learned that I have so much love to accept, it’s ridiculous. It almost (shhhh it does) brings tears to my face to think about it. Why do I choose the people who don’t want it? Is it the challenge? Silly. I have a man in my life who calls me at least once per week (sometimes more) to genuinely tell me how much he loves me and will be there for me for whatever I need; friend, father, guide, etc. He leaves me message after message asking for my friendship and offering to share his and his daughters, sisters, brothers, mothers love. This man was also my mothers first love at 17 as well as my sisters father. So why again don’t I return his phone calls?  P.S. This is just ONE (hefty) example and really will challenge me in all areas of my life.

3) FAMILY I’ve done a really good job at shooing these guys away. And trying to make myself believe that people (in general) don’t need them. Ha! Jokes on me. They thankfully haven’t taken no for an answer and I feel so lucky to be surrounded by beautiful, open, honest, talented, loving, loud and amazing humans. That’s all you get. They’re mine and I’m going to harass the fuck outta them starting….now.

4) GOING FOR IT I recently gave a birthday card to a good friend that simply said “Go For It.” Ever since I gave it to him, I’ve been pondering over the phrase for myself. Why don’t I go for it? Why does he get to be the one to do it all?  I feel I do a good job in some aspects, but I’m really, REALLY good at staying right inside this warm, comfy comfort zone I’ve created for little ol’ me. I have ideas and goals spilling out wherever I go. Napkins, notepads, hand, faces, ears…really whatever or whomever I can get my grimy little hands on. So, I’m going to pick a couple at a time and start whittling away on some personal, work related, physical and mental challenges I’ve been stewing over this past year (or life). 

So, there you have it 2010. It’s me and you. Can you handle it? Wait, can I handle it?!?!

Whisper voice: this might surprise you, but I absolutely can’t get enough of this song. I know it’s such a cliche and a wee bit cheesy, but I can’t help it! Stop shaking your head and/or laughing!

What’s Happening?

What is this I’m feeling? What’s is going on? Why do I love this? 

This brings Twilight to a whole other level.

Why is this so appealing to me?

Oh no. Are the romantic comedies getting to me?

I’m so baffled, I don’t even have anything to say. Which believe me, is unusual. I’m lost for words.

I need a drink. Like, now. 

Must Have Monday (on Wednesday) # 16